Syazana A.Bakar’s Weblog

Last night I dreamt of you. You forgave me. We laughed, smiled and talked like we used to.

I know its been more than five years and forgiving me or not wouldn’t even matter to you. But the last few horrible things I said is still something I regret to this day.

I am sorry. Is it impossible for you to forgive me, for real?
How do I seek for forgiveness when I don’t know where to start.

Make it all go away

My Aunt treated us to Fish&Co for a late birthday celebration for her daughter and my elder sister. My first time at Fish&Co and it was good. (:

Haven’t had those family bonding outings with my relatives for awhile so it was a good day. Would’ve been better though if my Dad wasn’t busy working.

I miss my friends. And of course, you too, boyfriend. (:

Theres no place like home.

Slept over at my aunt’s place last night and I would’ve stayed longer  but my Dad missed us. Like my aunt says, my Dad is very lokek(selfish) with his children.

Updates soon! Gtg

I LOST TWO KG…..!

b1, I’m so not gonna be fat when you see me so you better stop eating so much or I’ll keep disturbing you like you did to me last semester! Muahahhahahah!

Cleared my room today and found a whole box of waxing strips that I bought and never used. Whenever I clear out my stuff, I realize that I always buy things and end up not using them. Found a couple of facial stuff that I never used since buying them a month ago. And alot of hair accessories too! Ah, dumbo.

Anyway, tried waxing my underarms today and it hurts like a motherf. I’m gonna have to get the epilator soon. Or stick to plucking them.

Bah

Finally convinced my Dad that my hair is longggg! haha. He gave me the green light to trim it. Yes, trim only. But for now, I’ll leave it and I’ll only cut it a few days before school reopens.

My elder sister cried tears of joy just now cause her friend and I surprised her with a DVD of her favorite Korean band as a birthday gift. haha. I am a great sister, I know. HAHA!

Freaking broke right now. ):
Sigh.

Got up, realized that there was a text message from school regarding my results.

Alhamdulillah, I passed everything and improved from last semester but I wish I’d done better though. Will have to work harder next sem.

Bloody hungry. To hell with dieting.

Tuesday was good. We should do it again someday. (:

Confessed to Fi that I was disturbed about a problem between Nash and I. When I first mentioned it, she thought I was bloody pregnant!!!

Crazy kan! I am still a virgin, no doubt about that so don’t even imagine it.

Nash, thank Fi when you have the time. Things will be better from now on. I promise you. And you have Fi to thank. I’ll put in effort, k huns?

THANKS SITI RAFIDAH! I MISS YOU SO MUCH

Been busy with Kak Nurah’s Engagement ceremony last weekend. But it was great cause I finally got to catch up with my little cousins. Also had some bonding with my childhood friend (also my 2nd cousin and a fellow Ngee Ann student). Last two semesters have been pretty weird whenever I see her in school cause its been a long time since we last met which was during my primary school years so I never knew what to say.

But after we started talking, we got on well. She is in the same course as me so we kept going on about how we hardly get to see malay guys in BIT and what more to find malay guys and cute ones at that. Oh well.

With all these weddings and engagements thats going on in the family, I’m starting to ask myself if Nash is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. Sigh.

Meeting Iqah, Nabil and the rest for bowling tomorrow! Yaaay. haha, I’m getting real good at bowling okay! Stop laughing. Ciao!