Syazana A.Bakar’s Weblog

AHAHHAHAHA,

Comot, the kitten, is scared of Twix, the hamster. Twix bit Comot’s paw this morning. And Comot keeps running away from Twix. My hamster is so power and so garang man! AHHAHHA. ((:

I’ve uploaded more pictures of Comot into my album!!!

Anw, Nash visited Comot today and he has fallen in love with Comot. Comot is abit scared of him but I think it’ll get used to Nash if Nash comes often!

AHAHHHA, Macam angkat anak.! ahahahaha

Oh, I can’t get a nice picture of Comot when he’s not sleeping cos Comot is damn active and its almost impossible to get a nice picture of it when its hyperactive.

):

Today was my last day at Yogurt Place. NO WORK TMR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahhahaha. I’ll seriously miss some people.

Last day of working tomorrow! ((:

I really really really miss spending time with Nash. And no, working together is not spending time. We are like, friends when we are working, trust me.

Even Nash feels like we haven’t met for awhile when in actual fact we’ve been working the same shift for two days straight.

Its damn weird lah. Why do we feel like we haven’t met each other for so long eventhough we’ve met just a few hours ago?

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On a totally different matter,

Sometimes its best not knowing at all. What you don’t know, can’t hurt you. If I had the choice, I’d rather not know. Cos now that I do know, I feel like shit. Worse than shit.

It hurts, really.

Met the boys the other day cos Shah wanted to thank us for his birthday celebration by treating us.

It was really hot and the boys kept stopping every now and then so I wasn’t too happy and Nash asked me if I was having my period. I wasn’t having my period at that time.

But true enough, I’m having my period now. Hmm, maybe I’m really cranky when I’m suffering from PMS. HAH. Nash can always tell if the time of the month is approaching.

AHHAHAHA, yes we have a KITTEN. Which is very very VERY active. It keeps attempting to bite my arms. Its not painful but very very ticklish.

It also likes to irritate me by attempting to press my keypad every single time I’m IM-ing someone. GRRR.

And the cat made me drop my new wireless mouse.!!!! He’s now locked up in the bathroom. Padan muke! HAHA!

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Anw, I got a testimonial which made me smile.

Testimonials from -syazie’s Friends

* hidhUb
* Posted 29/3/2007
hello helllo

waow! look how time flies very fast. you know, that day i bump into fatimah and i was telling myself how much i missed those times in kallang when we were stuck in the cubicle with buckets thrown over us. remember? and us rolling over the dirty floors.

well,those memories are sure sweet.
take care and all the best in everyting. hehe

P.S: i kind of misssed your temper. haha.. when you actually tell ppl off if you dont like it. haha

Her name’s Hidayah and I knew her from NCC SEA. She is damn weird cos NO ONE has ever told me that they miss my temper!

HAHHAAHA

OH, Ain and Aniq came over to Yogurt Place today. Ain wanted to drop by before my last day.

(:

Haiz, Im so tired.

CLICK CLICK!

I went to Yogurt Place’s blog and saw this!! AHHAHA, There was some competition thingy on which shift can earn more for fri, sat and sun.

I WON FOR ALL THREE DAYS! = MORE MONEY!! (yeah, got extra money for those who won!

Oh, I’m supposed to be NANA btw. ! HAHAH

And, thanks AIN! (:

Met the boys the other day cos Shah wanted to thank us for his birthday celebration by treating us.

It was really hot and the boys kept stopping every now and then so I wasn’t too happy and Nash asked me if I was having my period. I wasn’t having my period at that time.

But true enough, I’m having my period now. Hmm, maybe I’m really cranky when I’m suffering from PMS. HAH. Nash can always tell if the time of the month is approaching.

AHHAHAHA, yes we have a KITTEN. Which is very very VERY active. It keeps attempting to bite my arms. Its not painful but very very ticklish.

It also likes to irritate me by attempting to press my keypad every single time I’m IM-ing someone. GRRR.

And the cat made me drop my new wireless mouse.!!!! He’s now locked up in the bathroom. Padan muke! HAHA!

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Anw, I got a testimonial which made me smile.

Testimonials from -syazie’s Friends

* hidhUb
* Posted 29/3/2007
hello helllo

waow! look how time flies very fast. you know, that day i bump into fatimah and i was telling myself how much i missed those times in kallang when we were stuck in the cubicle with buckets thrown over us. remember? and us rolling over the dirty floors.

well,those memories are sure sweet.
take care and all the best in everyting. hehe

P.S: i kind of misssed your temper. haha.. when you actually tell ppl off if you dont like it. haha

Her name’s Hidayah and I knew her from NCC SEA. She is damn weird cos NO ONE has ever told me that they miss my temper!

HAHHAAHA

OH, Ain and Aniq came over to Yogurt Place today. Ain wanted to drop by before my last day.

(:

Haiz, Im so tired.

CLICK CLICK!

I went to Yogurt Place’s blog and saw this!! AHHAHA, There was some competition thingy on which shift can earn more for fri, sat and sun.

I WON FOR ALL THREE DAYS! = MORE MONEY!! (yeah, got extra money for those who won!

Oh, I’m supposed to be NANA btw. ! HAHAH

And, thanks AIN! (:

Met the boys the other day cos Shah wanted to thank us for his birthday celebration by treating us.

It was really hot and the boys kept stopping every now and then so I wasn’t too happy and Nash asked me if I was having my period. I wasn’t having my period at that time.

But true enough, I’m having my period now. Hmm, maybe I’m really cranky when I’m suffering from PMS. HAH. Nash can always tell if the time of the month is approaching.

AHHAHAHA, yes we have a KITTEN. Which is very very VERY active. It keeps attempting to bite my arms. Its not painful but very very ticklish.

It also likes to irritate me by attempting to press my keypad every single time I’m IM-ing someone. GRRR.

And the cat made me drop my new wireless mouse.!!!! He’s now locked up in the bathroom. Padan muke! HAHA!

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Anw, I got a testimonial which made me smile.

Testimonials from -syazie’s Friends

* hidhUb
* Posted 29/3/2007
hello helllo

waow! look how time flies very fast. you know, that day i bump into fatimah and i was telling myself how much i missed those times in kallang when we were stuck in the cubicle with buckets thrown over us. remember? and us rolling over the dirty floors.

well,those memories are sure sweet.
take care and all the best in everyting. hehe

P.S: i kind of misssed your temper. haha.. when you actually tell ppl off if you dont like it. haha

Her name’s Hidayah and I knew her from NCC SEA. She is damn weird cos NO ONE has ever told me that they miss my temper!

HAHHAAHA

OH, Ain and Aniq came over to Yogurt Place today. Ain wanted to drop by before my last day.

(:

Haiz, Im so tired.

CLICK CLICK!

I went to Yogurt Place’s blog and saw this!! AHHAHA, There was some competition thingy on which shift can earn more for fri, sat and sun.

I WON FOR ALL THREE DAYS! = MORE MONEY!! (yeah, got extra money for those who won!

Oh, I’m supposed to be NANA btw. ! HAHAH

And, thanks AIN! (:

Met the boys the other day cos Shah wanted to thank us for his birthday celebration by treating us.

It was really hot and the boys kept stopping every now and then so I wasn’t too happy and Nash asked me if I was having my period. I wasn’t having my period at that time.

But true enough, I’m having my period now. Hmm, maybe I’m really cranky when I’m suffering from PMS. HAH. Nash can always tell if the time of the month is approaching.

AHHAHAHA, yes we have a KITTEN. Which is very very VERY active. It keeps attempting to bite my arms. Its not painful but very very ticklish.

It also likes to irritate me by attempting to press my keypad every single time I’m IM-ing someone. GRRR.

And the cat made me drop my new wireless mouse.!!!! He’s now locked up in the bathroom. Padan muke! HAHA!

————-

Anw, I got a testimonial which made me smile.

Testimonials from -syazie’s Friends

* hidhUb
* Posted 29/3/2007
hello helllo

waow! look how time flies very fast. you know, that day i bump into fatimah and i was telling myself how much i missed those times in kallang when we were stuck in the cubicle with buckets thrown over us. remember? and us rolling over the dirty floors.

well,those memories are sure sweet.
take care and all the best in everyting. hehe

P.S: i kind of misssed your temper. haha.. when you actually tell ppl off if you dont like it. haha

Her name’s Hidayah and I knew her from NCC SEA. She is damn weird cos NO ONE has ever told me that they miss my temper!

HAHHAAHA

OH, Ain and Aniq came over to Yogurt Place today. Ain wanted to drop by before my last day.

(:

Haiz, Im so tired.

CLICK CLICK!

I went to Yogurt Place’s blog and saw this!! AHHAHA, There was some competition thingy on which shift can earn more for fri, sat and sun.

I WON FOR ALL THREE DAYS! = MORE MONEY!! (yeah, got extra money for those who won!

Oh, I’m supposed to be NANA btw. ! HAHAH

And, thanks AIN! (:

Read some….mails.

Did I make the right choice by choosing to stay?
):

A very long entry.

Nash and I were at a shopping mall. I was angry at Nash over some small issue. He tried to pujok me but I kept scolding him and pushing him away.

After a while, Nash managed to pull me to a corner which was quite deserted so the people who were staring at us when I was shouting at him, wouldn’t be able to hear what he was gonna say to me.

When Nash was very sure that no one could hear us, he told me, “You, I’ve had enough. I cannot take this anymore. I think its best that we break up.”

I was overcome with embarrassment and shock bcos I NEVER expected this. Not at all! I was expecting him to pujok me over and over again like how he’d usually do.

But I was determined to save whatever pride was left in me so I told him it was fine and I couldn’t care less about breaking up with him.

I stormed off but I started crying as soon as I walked away from him. I knew that he knew I was crying but Nash made no attempt to go after me. That was when I realised that this was really the end between us.

Being with him for quite some time already, Nash has never asked me for a break up and he has never left me crying alone. So when all these happened, I knew that he was really serious about it.

Within the next few hours, somehow, Nash and I met again. This time, I knew that it was my last chance to get him to come back to me.

So i tried to soften his heart by telling him how much he means to me and how I really can’t stand the thought of him leaving me. I’ve never been that desperate in my whole life. Cos usually my ego gets in the way of everything. I’ve no idea how i managed to beg him like that without feeling embarrassed at all.

Despite my pleas and tears, Nash was very certain about his decision. He told me that his decision was final and theres nothing I can do to change it now. After those few last words, he just left me. Left me sobbing to myself.

Feeling utterly tired and drained of every single energy from all the crying, I got home.

When I got home, I found most of my friends at my house. For whatever reason they were there, I didn’t know. I knew it wasn’t my birthday so I couldn’t think of any reason why they would be there.

I had to tell someone about what happened. So I decided to tell my mom. And when I did, she didn’t try to make me feel better In fact, she shouted at me for being impatient with Nash. She shouted at me for taking him for granted. She shouted at me in front of all my friends. Every single person was looking at me like I deserved the break up.

My mom kept shouting at me so I told her to please remember that I’m her daughter and that she’s embarrassing me.

My mom shouted even more and said that i deserved all this. She said Nash made the right choice by leaving me cos I’ve never treated him well.

I have never ever been so hurt in my whole life. Everyone was against me. Even my mom. My own mom going against me and took sides with my ex instead! Everyone was glad that Nash left me.

I ran to my room, went to bed and cried into my pillow silently. I cried and cried for what seemed like hours.

I woke up with a start and realised that my face was wet with tears. I checked my hp and saw a text msg from Nash informing that he is on his way to work and that he loves me.

Only then did I realise that everything was just a dream. A very bad one. But I am glad its only a dream cos this dream was one of the most realistic dream I’ve ever had. I even cried while dreaming of this. Hahaha!

I told Nash about this and he gave me a hug and promised me that he’ll never leave me. I really hope he keeps his word. (:

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Going to Ngee Ann tomorrow! With my parents.

I just got home.

It was raining very heavily at Simei when I reached my bus stop. Its about 7mins walk from the bus stop to my house. There were lightning every few minutes so you can gauge how heavy the rain was.

I called my elder sister to fetch me but she started grumbling and used a harsh tone on me. In other words, she was indirectly telling me she didn’t wanna fetch me. She kept asking me if I was kidding her in a very fed up tone.

Called my dad but he was in Jurong so there was no way he could fetch me. I called my sister again and she answered her phone angrily cos she knew she had to pick me up no matter what since my dad is in Jurong.

After I persuaded her NICELY to please fetch me with an unbrella, she hung up without saying bye. I called her back and told her I’ll be going home by myself(angrily, of course.)

She never bothered to call back. So i ran in the rain and got home very very wet.

My elder sis doesn’t mind the fact that I’m angry cos I’m also angry at my younger sister due to a similar situation. So they both can be friend friend while I’ll be lonely cos I wont talk to either of them, what.

Kak Nana, thanks man. Great sis you are. You can say I’m being unreasonable and whatnot but come on, I’m your SISTER and you prioritise a tv show? Imagine what ayah will say when he hears about this. I’m sure me being unreasonable wouldn’t be one of his thoughts.

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Very very tired. When my sisters treat me like this (like they aren’t my sisters), I start to appreciate Nash more cos he’ll do anything he can for me as long as he’s able to do it.

Which is why I love you so. (:

Thats about the only thought that keeps me smiling today. Haiz.

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I was changing and I realised that even my undergarments were wet.

Random pictures updateee. (:


Did this at work when I got angry at Nash unreasonably so I gave him this as a way of saying sorry. (:

My enrolment package. A lot of things to do. Leceh man.

Gave this to Nash last night cos his finger bled. ):

A very tired boyfriend after his March camp last week. He slept during his break time. He wasn’t slacking, don’t worry.

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Why is blogger so bodoh.? I cant go to zaf’s blog and many others for days already.! blah