Syazana A.Bakar’s Weblog

Here I am, in my bloody towel and dripping wet hair after a shower, waiting for the damn kettle to boil for my bowl of Myojo thai tom yam noodles as breakfast.

While Nash is at home still smelly and in his nightwear, having his damn pizza delivered to his doorstep for his breakfast.

How fair is that!? Bloody hell. ):

Nash and I are very different. I’ve always thought that being different from each other is a good thing. For example, I am very impatient so having someone who’s very patient like Nash, is a good thing.

I guess I was wrong cos when I was about to buy him a gift yesterday, I realised how difficult it was to get him something he’d like.

Nash is Mr. Cerewet. I’d hate to waste money on something he wouldn’t really like so i ended up not buying him the gift.

I kept reminding myself about the wallet I bought which he admitted that he didn’t quite fancy. And how we had to exchange the shirt i bought for him cos he didn’t like the colour i chose.

The only reason why I was very sure he’d like the watch i bought him was because he has already seen it before and showed great interest in it.

I know I know.. Being with Nash for quite some time already I should know what he likes or don’t right? ahahah.

Aiyah.

So anw, I asked Shah for his opinion and guess what? Shah blurted it out in front of Nash so its no surprise anymore.

Grr. So being very different from your partner isn’t a very good thing. Nash is now expecting something from me but I really have no idea what to get him.

I want to get him something cos he’s always buying me stuff. I know for sure he wants one thing. A PSP.

That is as good as getting him a new gf cos Nash will no longer pay attention to me once he has that little box as entertainment.

Besides, where the hell will I get the money to buy a PSP for Nash? Wait long long ah you.!

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Nash very very cute! must watchhh. ahahahahhah. okay maybe not so cute to you people, but very cute to me leyy.

And in case you’re wondering why Nash is wearing a cap indoors,its cos his hair is flat after wearing a cap at work earlier that day. So he wants to hide his retarded curly hair under that cap.

He had a haircut recently and the barber cut it damn short so he looks like budak kecik now. Like baby ganyut also la.

Hehe, still love you though.

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I know I’ve been blogging alot abt Nash but I can’t help it ley. Haven’t been seeing my friends what. But that doesn’t mean I don’t miss them.

My Manager is going to start having drinks from tomorrow onwards so its gonna be busier than ever for all of us. ):

Night shift with Nash tomorrow!!

Interview will be held next week for zaf and bee!!! But, like, sch gonna start soon so i dont know if they still wanna work there or not.

I went over to school yesterday and coincidentally met Keith. Caught up abit on each other. I am quite surprised to hear a few things. hmmm.

Then I met my sister and did some quick shopping and rushed off to work. I’ve been spending alot and i hate the fact that the amount of money in my bank is decreasing every day. sheesh.

Shah and Fiyan came over to discuss a few things with Nash. Shah was being his same irritating self. But i miss his stupid crappy talks. Simply put, i miss Shah actually.

Like whenever I’m angry or tired, I just have to look at his face and i’ll start smiling/laughing. HAHHAHAH. Maybe cos he looks like a clown! okay, jk!

Not working today but will be meeting Nash in a while after his work and before his silat. Pity him though. We went home at abt 2am last night and he’s doing morning shift today and he has silat at night.
He has to layan me and meet me before silat. That boy has no rest at all. Poor thing. ):

Oh, I’m gonna visit a hair salon today. Nash, who never notices hair changes, has been saying that my hair is messy and thick. So its really time to cut cut cut!

For the past few days, Yogurt Place has been closed due to the Chinese New Year celebrations. I’ve had my share of rest and some time to think about what has been happening for the past few days.

Working really tires me out. I’ve been doing night shift last week and i get home at about 12am-2am every night. And when I’m tired, its much more difficult for me to be nice. I get cranky. I’ve been getting alot of shifts with Nash. So whenever I’m cranky cos I’m too tired, i take it out on him.

It hasn’t been easy for him cos he can’t seem to understand why i keep getting angry for no reason at all. I don’t know either. Sometimes, these things happen without me even realizing it.

I’m sorry, Nash. I promise it won’t ever happen again. Having you so close to me, i start taking you for granted. It hasn’t been easy on you. And I’m really sorry. I’m sorry I said we won’t make it. I’m sorry I said you aren’t the one.

I didn’t know it’ll affect you that way. I promise to work hard to keep it going cos i want it to. I promise never to say all that unless I have a good reason to do so. I promise not to get angry for no absolute reason at all.

I promise. I love you. Only you.

I’ve no idea I hurt you that way till you mentioned it. The thing about me is, when I’m angry, I spout nonsense and I mean the opposite of everything I say.

When I say “Shut up!”, it means “Cepat la pujok”. Really.

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Date with Nash today was canceled cos his family decided to go out. Nash hasn’t been spending time with his family so I insisted that he go out with them. Moreover, his brother has been complaining that he’s hardly home and always goes out.

So we decided to watch Norbit tomorrow after work! YES!! Same shift again! ahahahhah. I love my manager man!! But we finish at 5pm like that. So we might have to skip the plan of eating at Breeks after the show. )):

Fi, you’ve yet to tell me when you’ll be free this week.

And my dear 4As, ice skating? I got my pay alr.!!! (:

Nur Aisyah Mohamed? Fancy an outing? But next week okay, don’t think I can get off this week.

My elder sister has been hogging the com for a long long time now cos she’s doing some final year project thingy.

So even when i try to blog when im at home (which is hardly cos im always working), i cant. She’s in the shower now so i will be able to blog for a few minutes.

So yesterday i helped Michael out at Tangs cos Yogurt Place was closed. Got my pay plus an Ang pow from the Lady boss.

Planning to get a dozen of yummy and gorgeous doughnut that my mom brought home from vivo the other day for the lady boss as a new year gift. And…..Owwww. My tummy is aching and i really need to shit now. Blog again soon! I cant stop farting ley….! BYE

So I had my off day today. Planned to eat at Seoul Garden with Fi and Fiq. But I couldn’t really enjoy myself cos Nash and I are were having a tiff.

No, really. I hate arguing with him. HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!

But then again, I really should shut up since everything is okay now. I hope we won’t be arguing any sooner. Come dear, lets be happy happy. Don’t be angry angry with each other ley.

Work tomorrow and will be having the same shift as him again. Working isn’t fun. Although, having him around is much better than working without him. I guess I’ll never appreciate what I’ve got.

Well, at least I have a few things to look forward to. My pay will be on this Saturday! And Nash and I won’t be working on Tuesday. We’ll go out on a DATE!!!! yaaaay!

Its been a while since we last went out you know.! Damn excited! And Nash, you paying kan? teeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Love you!

ps. Fi, good luck for your job tmr.
Zaf, thanks! (:

Afternoon will be spent with my 4As. Night will be at Yogurt Place. ): Yes, work AGAIN! But at least Nash and I are having the same shift today.

So look on the bright side of life. (:

I just kept wondering if any couple would dare to kiss just for a large(yes, large not junior. MY mistake. sorry)cup of yogurt. We’ll just have to see. Gtg shower now. Meeting zaf in like, 50mins!

PRELIMS
English C6
Mathematics A1
Combined Science F9
Combined Humans F9
Malay B3
Art B4

L1R4=23
L1R5=32

OLEVELS
English B3
Mathematics B3
Combined Science A1
Combined Humans D7
Malay B3
Art C6

L1R4=16
L1R5=23

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Pretty disappointed in maths cos i dropped 2 grades and i didn’t get a distinction for maths! I would’ve been quite contented to have dropped to an A2 recalling how i screwed the last question.

Very very happy with my Combined Science though. A huge jump from an F9 to an A1. so yaaaay! Thanks Fi for pushing me and panicking for me when you found out about my prelims. I’m asking Fi and Fiq out tomorrow for a meal at Seoul Garden or Swensens(or any place of their choice). MY TREAT!

HAHA! I got 300bucks from Habib as a hadiah (gift) because he was very happy that i did well.! I can start paying all the people i owe.!! yaaaay!

I expected my art to be not so good cos I had paint spilled over my main piece. But thank god i didnt get a D or below. Haiz.

Art is such a nuisance. I really think our school should have POA or something. I bet i would’ve scored so much better for POA than Art.

But then again, i estimated and prayed hard for an 18 when i refered to my prelims result. So i should be thankful and happy with my 16. And I am!!

I’ve submitted my 12 choices last night. My dad did the order of the courses while i highlighted the ones i wanted. I really hope and pray all 12 choices doesn’t reject me.

Oh, my mom was very happy with my results. My dad was disappointed in my maths(because i did better in prelims), Malay and Art (he thinks art is easy just cos he used to get A1 for art and had his work in the museum for a year.)

But I’m not my dad. I’m not talented in the creative art-ish zone so he has to understand. And my Malay, well, i suck at languages so he has to understand also.

But i think he’s pretty happy i still made it through. So yaaay. Im happy, they’re happy, everyone is happy!!!!!!!!!!

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Had a great time with these three on the 7th. I was made to pretend to cry to zaf on the phone so she’ll rush to meet me and she’ll get her surprise. But when i started to pretend sobbing, tears really formed. AHAHA. I should be rewarded with an award.!

Zaf’s reaction when we shouted was damn priceless.! AHAHAHAH. Like she waned to berak or something. Ate at Secret recipe and Marcus were damn nice. I dont know him personally cos ive never talked to him but i think he’s nice lah.(:

We WALKED all the way to sch from siglap and i think the walk was very nice. We talked about anything under the moon and really, i miss them.

The walk was tiring but the talk was good. We’ll be celebrating together when Sheikha gets back from HONG KONG! I’m looking forward to that. I miss these girls already.

Im just very glad none of us cried on the 9th. (: Im so proud of you girls. See you soon,dears.

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I miss you. We’ve been so busy working, we don’t even have time for each other after work. I miss laughing with you.I miss our endless hours of talking shit and laughing like theres no tomorrow.

But both of us are all serious and tense at work. We’ll be doing the same shift today and we’ll be alone (at last). I’m looking forward for some time alone with you. (:

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Work has been okay. Very tiring though. I had a splitting headache last night due to lack of sleep i guess.

My manager was very happy to have Nash cos he’s such a perfectionist and he ALWAYS rearrange and cleans the counter.

Sometimes it gets me irritated cos he was more keen on cleanliness than to push for sales. Talked to him about it and he’s now less obsessed with the cleanliness.(:

He made this balloon for me.! yay!

CALLING ALL COUPLES! Come over to Yogurt Place on Valentine’s Day. Kiss for 30secs and you’ll get a free Junior cup of Yogurt of any choice!

My manager joked that Nash and I should demonstrate how to kiss. HAHA! Oh, and she picked Nash and I to be the models for our new website. Both of us were pretty excited about it!

Yogurt, anyone? (:

I did much better than I had prayed/hoped/estimated for.!!! AAAAAAAAAH! Im very very happyy!! ((:

I think the most merepek thing that happen yesterday was when people who has probably forgotten abt me (did not contact me for like, a year or so) suddenly calls and asked how i did.

If you were hoping that i didn’t make it, well sad for you, i made it through. And i think i did better than a few that were hoping i wont! so yaaaaaaaaaay!

I’m so glad all 4As were damn happy with their results. ((:

Nash and i have the same L1R4!!! But our R5 is different (his L1R5 better) cos I failed humans. But really, i can’t care cos I’m not opting for JC.

Might blog about my results in detail when i feel like it. And the clutter(books and notes) in my room can be thrown! I’m not gonna retake.

For those who were truly happy for me, thank you very much. Special thanks to Fi and Fiq. Couldn’t have done it without you guys, really.

And Mdm Ho, you said i won’t make it for my olevels.! HAH! I did well for science NO THANKS to you but thanks to my dear friends,fi and fiq! You wouldn’t let me attend your classes but i still made it! HMPH!

So the family had supper at Ulu Ulu Safari Restaurant which is located at Night Safari for my Dad’s birthday. The stuff there were totally overpriced, in my opinion.

I wanted to opt for another place to eat, but since the birthday Dad was keen on eating there, we settled down and ate there anyway.

My plate of FRIED RICE costs $14! Talk about overpricing. And 14 bucks was the cheapest food over there, I’m not kidding. MY elder sis and I took the cheapest food we could cos we aren’t used to spending so much knowing that our family isn’t well off.

The only reason why i ordered was cos the birthday dad seemed very excited about eating there.
And this was the price for the drinks.

Ice mountain costs $2.50!!! I didn’t know what to have so i told the waiter I’d have the pineapple juice. He commented that i could get there anywhere and recommended their special cocktail drink which was at the other side of the beverage list.

i just dumbly said ok without checking the price and my drink turned out to be 22bucks. Much more expensive than my fried rice.

Haiz, i was quite disturbed and worried at the amount of money that was spent on that day. I am so used to not asking my parents for money cos sometimes we don’t have even have enough.

But i guess its ok cos at least my dad was happy even though it burnt a big hole in his pocket. Yes, he paid for his own birthday meal.

I guess most families out there won’t worry too much about spending that kind of money regularly on these kind of food. If you are one who belongs to this category, count yourselves lucky cos i experience this kinda thing only once in a blue moon.

But i guess I’ll appreciate them more than you(high income families) will. And thats a good thing. I don’t mind coming from a low/middle income family because we’ll tend to appreciate more things in life.

Losing my k800i will mean more to me than rich kids who’ll get their parents to buy new ones the next day. Get my point?

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Nash, get well soon. And yay! seventeen months, love.

Miss my 3As and Syah. Keep making plans to meet her but always takde jodoh to meet. Might be seeing her boyfriend on Friday though. Its about time. Brape lame kau nak sembunyi kan laki kau, huh? hehe

Anw, I hope i won’t be crying this Friday. Pray for me ppl. Insyallah I’ll get the results I’m aiming for.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH! SCAAARY!!

okay, work tomorrow.!!!!!!!!!! bye people. Oh and Nash wasted his money by buying new tops for me to wear to work cos Yogurt Place will be giving out uniforms. What a waste of money. Nash refuses to let me pay him back. Nilah orang ade duit, tak sayang duit.

OH! and i have to wear a BRIGHT red cap. Which looks damn funny on me cos the caps are SOO big. I have a small head you know! If zaf (whose head is smaller than mine) wears the cap, it’ll probably cover her eyes AND nose! HAHA. (: