Syazana A.Bakar’s Weblog

please come back.

i need those ears to hear my problems. i need those arms to reach out to me. i need those shoulders to cry on. i need those fingers to wipe my tears. i need that body to hug me tight. i need that voice to assure me that everything is okay as long as you are around.

i need you. ):
i had a shitty day. youre the only one who can make it all okay. but where are you?

dear nash,

so today i was supposed to do morning shift (11am-7pm). but because youre not around anymore i have nothing to look forward to after ive knocked off from work. so i decided to do full shift today which is up to 10pm.

but im blogging here just for you. and dont fret cos eventhough im busy working, i do think of you alot. of course i miss you alot. and i still love you ALOT.

hehe. okay mushy post. teehee.

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i had chinese lessons with my fellow promoters today. alot of laughters went on. ivy (my goldlion senior) is getting cuter by the day.

oh and jun ping was saying “bukit merah” out loudly. but his tongue abit cacat so he pronounced it as “pukit merah” w/o emphasizing on the T sound on bukit. so it sounded like “puki merah”!!

the apek overheard what he said and started chuckling to himself. ivy and i burst out laughing cos cannot tahan anymore. oh and ivy can understand malay cos she’s malaysian.

a very cute malaysian. very small small one. she’s alot like ms goh lay ching. so you can roughly agak agak what ivy is like lah huh.

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i really cannot wait for my pay leyyy!!!! ivy (my five yrs classmate) and i have a date! ((:

so regarding my phone.. ahaha, shah and fiyan sent them over to my doorstep that very night. many thanks to them lah. ahahha.

i woke up today and saw 3new messages alert on my phone. my first thoughts were “oh shit!” cos i fell asleep while msging nash before he flew off. all 3msgs were from nash. haiya. and his last msg told me to update my blog cos he’ll be reading it from africa.

so nash, if youre here, i love youuuuu!!!! (: and miss you too of course.

it was so weird when i didnt receive any msgs or calls during my makan time. oh and he plans to tell his mom about us during this trip. but dont know if he really will tell or not.

i wont be updating about his birthday post today cos i am not that semangat to blog so i dont wan to spoil that post. i’ll wait for another day okay. but if you were wondering what i got him, i’ll post up a picture okayyy.

i remembered how excited nash was when he first laid eyes on this watch when we were shopping at vivo. so i decided to buy him this. i borrowed from my mom first of course. will pay her back as soon as i get my pay.

and he actually told his family that the watch was from a girl. i wonder if they suspect anythng or not.

haiz. i can still remember nash’s reaction. damn cuuuute! ((: shall update about his birthday very soon. so sorry for delaying it. i am very tired. )):

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initially i wanted to quit after i met with a very sucky customer. i told myself that that was the last straw. but micheal came down today to give me encouragement and tried to make me laugh. he is too nice for me to leave this company.

oh, and i found out he’s married alr. )): was disappointed okay. i like micheal ALOT! ahhaha, nash, dont worry too much. micheal is 30plus lahhhh.

anw, come back soon bf.!!!!!

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i havent spend time with my friends for quite a while alr. i feel so bad. ):

the most merepek thing just happened. you wont even believe me. but nash’s and my nokia3230 got switched.

but his hp had no sim card cos he was still using the other phone. and my phone and sim card is with nash.

and guess whats even worse? NASH IS FLYING TO AFRICA TOMORROW!!! not funny ok. anw, im tired and shall update abt nash’s bday soon.

omg, why do we even have the same phone?

i scanned in at 1101 today when im supposed to scan in at 1100. so i guess they’ll cut off an hour of my pay. swayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!! blahhh.

so im sort of ready for nash’s bday. just a few more preparation. the guys(shah,fiyan,zaki and nizam) were supposed to celebrate another day but they were considering changing it to wednesday.

which probably will clash with my plans. i wanted to help them plan and asked shah to call. but he never did. so i dont care what their plans will be. but there is no way i’ll allow the guys’ plans to clash with my plans. as far as im concerned, ive planned and chopped nash way way ahead.

muahahhahahahha!

okay, sooo nash came over to my workplace today. the auntie beside my counter says my boyfriend is handsome. ahahha. i tell you ar, only aunties are attracted to nash. i guess i have aunties’ taste lor.

oh and my senior, ivy, is 20yrs old but her body size is the same as mine. really small. in fact she’s smaller cos my waist is 23.3inch while her waist is 23inch.

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TWO MORE DAYSSSS!! (:
you cant wait? me tooooo!

work later. so maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalaaaaaaasssss. )): haiya. supposed to report for work at 1pm but since im hungry and food is very important to me, i shall go eastpoint to eat with ati and report for work at 2pm.

do you know that when i scan my card everyday, it will computerise the time i arrived. and when im one minute late, they’ll cut an hour of my pay!!!

so imagine my joy when i scanned in at 12:59:43 yesterday when i was supposed to report by 13:00:00. just 18seconds wouldve cost an hour’s worth of pay.
((:

haha. okay, im tired. seriously. next off day will be on wednesdayyyy! CANT WAIT!!!!

met harid again at kak nur’s wedding. he’s so not photogenic but looks damn cute real life!!! aahhahah. and ok, i was hugging him. like, why wouldnt i hug him? bahahha. nash gave me that ‘look’ when he saw this picture. haiyaaaaa. YOU, GREEN EYED MONSTER!

eh, you also flirted with that primary2 girl while pretending to pasang the jigsaw puzzle for her lorrrrr!

made mango pudding for the boyfriend cos he said that he’s craving for one. im a great gf, i know. dont have to remind me. AHHAHAHAHHAHA,.

nash and i found out that theres exactly another couple in this little singapore island with the name, syaz and nash. styloo right.

cos i was customizing something with syaz and nash on it when the shop person told us that another couple named syaz and nash also came earlier but never come back to collect their item.

small world small world. ahahah.

oh, and nash said ive changed since i started working. changed as in i dont love him anymore. )): i still love him lor. i’ll prove it to you on ur bday kkkk!!! ((:

its his birthday but im the one whos damn excited for it. i really really hope everything goes well. im going to bring him somewhere but i’ll blindfold him while we’re on the way to the particular location. muahahhahahahahha! ((:

CANT WAIT.! i’ll try to take pictures. but that means i hafta borrow the cam from my dad. but i doubt i will cos he’ll probably request to take a look at the photos. but….haiya, i’ll think of something lah. i always manage to anw.!!

work tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahahhaha. k, bye!

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ohoh, sheikha i hope the cheesecake turned out niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiice!! (((((:

quite an old picture but aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I MISS MY HAIR LEYYYYYYYY!! ))):

last night i dreamt that i got back my olevel results and i couldnt enter a jc or poly. so my only choice was to go to an ite. my heart dropped lor. but i made a decision to retake lah. ahahha. i hope this dream doesnt come trueee. haiz.

met yiwen today. she’s still as cute as ever. it was nice meeting her. ((: micheal wasnt in his usual good mood. haiiii.

stocks came in today. i carried alot of boxes and did alot of unpacking. im very very tired. my back is aching real bad. and im actually exercising without intending to. blah.

oh, a customer told me that i am so patient and i can serve well. that seriously made me smile ALOT.

ahahha. ohhhh, off day tmr.!!!! nashhhhhhhhhh here i commmeeeeeeeeeeee!! (:

oh, im starting to panic cos nash’s bday is in a weeks time but i havent bought his present yet and still not sure about what to get. last year i already bought his present A MONTH before his birthday. talk about kiasuism maaaaaaaan.

okay bye. i wanna talk to nash now.

hiiiiii. so have been busy with work lately. and the fact that my cousin is getting married. so have been trying to help out lah.

took leave specially for her tomorrow you know. haizz but i will be standing and walking ard the whole day tomorrow so wont be resting like how i hope i could.

my legs seriously need a break. or a massage perhaps? haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. ):

nash and his friends, fiyan, shah and zaki went cycling today and they cycled from pasir ris/tampines all the way to orchard during my lunch. so nash was all eeecky and sweaty.

but haii, at least they were nice enough to let me see my boyfriend. havent met him since i started work leyyy. thanks you guys.! ((:

and you, my boy, i shall give you a proper hug only when i see you all fresh and clean. (:

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fi, you didnt call me back!

yiwen!! msg me when youre free!! ((:

hihiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!! ahahah. okay so work was great. my boss, micheal is so bloody nice. my previous boss from charles david would always ask “how’s sales?” the moment i call him.

but micheal asked, “so how was your first day? ok or not?”. so nice right. he’s so concerned for his workers’ well being. ((:

anw, i made a new friend. alvin. he’s funny and very very fun. he introduced valencia to me. but i didnt talk much to her cos alvin was friendlier.

i am in the men’s department. i have both good and bad news about being in a men’s department.

the good news is, everywhere i turn be it left, right, front, back, up or down, i see men men men men men men men MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN.! ahahahhahaha.

the bad news is, most of these men are old men.! ahahahhaha.

i only saw two customers who caught my attention today. one was very young(younger than me i think) who has a very sexy voice while the other was obviously older than me but i think he has a gf.

so yeah. i had my break with my charles david manager and sheila(my previous colleague.) i am tired. ive been folding trillions of goldlion boxers and briefs. i sell socks, hankies, ties, wallets and belts too.

of course, goldlion boxers and briefs are the most popular one. and i NEVER know what to say when these men asks me what size they should take. ahahahha.

work tomorrow.! ((: oh and the security pakcik is my other friend. ahaha