Syazana A.Bakar’s Weblog

i tried tt thing ain had in her blog. she typed syaz so i typed, syazana.
what came out was,

My Goodness! My Syazana!

it was weird lah. but nothing interesting for my name.
then ain typed nash so i typed nashruddin,the thing tt came out was,

How Many Licks Does it Take to Get to the Center of a Nashruddin?

i started laughing and thinking dirty so i decided to close the window. MREPEK LAH THAT THING! walauu

oh the joy!

so, fi and fiq advised me to study and put the com aside since its always so distracting. been doing some studying tt was why i havent been updating.

so aniwae, chem was the only paper tt caught me off guard lah. it was damn difficult lah. and i actually thought i was very prepared for chem alr. very disappointing.

oh well, thank god its only mid yrs.!

mt oral this tuesday. gaaaaaaaah. practically, things has been fine. im still contemplating if i should do my art or not.

im very very hungry and my mom didnt cook today. where’s my younger sister? if my mom doesnt cook, she would usually cook for us.

i guess it’ll be maggi for me. ):

3A’s and i have been having some quality time together. (: apparently, someone else wants to join in but sorry uh, we’d rather stay as 4A’s. THANK YOUUU.

oh, and nash smells different now. and for like, two seconds, i thought i was hugging someone else just now. wahaaa.!

nash sent me till the bus stop only since shee went home alr. and bee and fee had geog and will be having mt oral. he didnt send me home cos he had friday prayers.

so i boarded the bus alone and it felt weird. like seriously, when was the last time i went home alone? either nash sends me or zaf would be ard. or even fi takes the same bus and all.

i think im getting too dependent on having ppl ard to accompany me home. sheeeeeeesh.

enough blabbing. bye bye. i miss playing games okay. long time no play. oh, the joy!!!

been studying and i realised i needed a break eventhough theres till so much i havent covered. oh well.

anw, i cant slp cos im pretty excited to meet yiwen, hakim and zaid later!! =)

lets hope the y can all get along with each other. okay game playing time nowwww. bye

hihiiii.

i am so damn tired. havent been updating cos ive been doing some studying. i havent touched on my art at all and it sucks thinking abt it.

studied with mr nosh, shah, fiyan and zaki at the airport yesterday. met some chinese 4/4 ppl and haziq. hahaha.

shah was asking some stuffs abt our future so we discussed abt them.

we got to the subject of maids and all. it turns out tt nash doesnt want one while i want one. i would rather not work but nash wants me to work.

it got me thinking tt there’ll be more complications in the future.

but, why put yourself down over something that wont affect you for now?

so anw, they went to ms peh’s wake then went for prayers. (thank fiyan for tt) i went home to change first, then met up with them again.

my mom called and asked me to go buy some stuff frm ntuc. nash insisted coming with me in a way a kid would persuade his mom.

its sort of funny shopping for groceries with nash. he did however, promise that he’ll always accompany me to the supermarket when we get married since we wont have a maid. =)))

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studied with fiq and fi on monday.

meant to be.

he was massaging her leg okay. how sweet is tt? HAHA

will be studying with fiq and fi later. and haziq coming with us. that means i will be seeing him three days in a row. HAHA

anw, im getting tired alr. shant be updating for a while. sorry!

oh, and gue will be meeting nosh tmr. yey!

aiya, im tagged by fee and bee but im not in the mood to do it right now. nanti k pantats. anw, im very hungry right now cos i only had pizza (frm last night) and fruit punch the whole day.

okay, maybe a few chocolates lah.

my back hurts. and ive been getting distracted with stupid stuffs which wastes my time frm revising which makes me very angry with myself.

nash has something troubling him but he’s not telling me cos he thinks its better to talk if we meet. but right now, its making me even more troubled cos he’s troubled but i knw we wont meet for awhile so tt means nash would be troubled for a while more.

i hope its not abt his insecurities again.

haiz.

camp has been postponed again. and i cant help but wonder if its a bad move to go for camp when i should be studying.

then again, maybe i need a break. but its not like i have been studying much so maybe not.

i am irritating myself so muchand i feel tt im irritating you and you’re irriitated too.

i dont know. and ppl have been saying ive been going missing. have i?. in what way have i been missing.?

sheikha texted me last night. it affects me to hear abt how she was. stop doing this to her. thank you very much. and sheikha, please consider abt what ive said. you knw what’s best kan.

some things arent worth the things you’re willing to do for these things.
get it? i knw you dont. tt was an attempt to irritate you.

okay, goodbye for now before i irritate enough ppl to kill me.

and maybe, i just want to be missing. thank you. bye.

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sorry siti rafidah and muhd syafiq.

hiihiii!

i met yiwen today therefore im a very happy girl. god, i missed her so much maaaaan!!! she came over here all the way frm Yew Tee.!!!

haiya, so touching kan? i missed her lah. and i felt really bad cos i came late. and i kept apologising profusely lah. but yiwen, being the nice person she is, kept saying its ok and never tried to bring it up to make me feel guilty.

i promised her that i’ll drop by somewhere near her place next time and not be late for our next meeting. i hope i keep my word.

i want to study tomorrow. haiz.

and i miss siti rafidah bte ruslan. fiiiii, come back lah. syafiq and i miss you very much tauuuuu!!!! what will i do without our daily late night chats??!!

anw, i asked fiq along on our next studying day cos he told me he could help me with chem. so i have you for maths and him for chem. (:

text me once you’re back okay. i miss you sssoooo sooooo muchios! mwah. okay, gdbye for now.!

OMG OMGGGGG!!!!

i cant believe what almost happen actually happened!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i almost lost the love of my life. i almost lost the one who accompanies me wherever i go. i almost lost the one who wakes me up every morning. i almost lost the one i treasure so much.

i almost lost my dear handphone. ALMOST!

so anw, my dad decided to put aside some time for us since he’s been so damn busy with work lately.

my younger sis has been craving for the changi village nasi lemak cos its damn nice and its been awhile since we last had it.

but my dad doesnt really like to eat at hawker centres so we drove up to changi beach and had our meal at the waterbreaker.

if you knw me well, i dont like to bring a bag ard when i go out and i dont like putting my phone in my pocket cos its bulky as im using a nokia phone and not some motorola slim phone.

so anw, while eating my packet of nasi lemak and having my phone somewhere near me, i moved ard to make myself comfortable.

i forgot my phone was beside me so i accidentally push it over the edge and it rolled down the slope and towards the sea. i panicked and i hurried down the slope but wasnt fast enough to grab my phone.

but, thank god soooo much cos my phone miraculously stopped rolling down the slope. my sister was shouting at me to get back up. my dad was giving me weird looks. i was trembling at the thought of what almost happened.

i love my phone so much. i’d probably be crying right now if my phone actually ended up drowned. its not so much abt the phone but more of its content. and its scary when i think abt how i almost lost all of tt.

before all these happened, the almost-drowned-my-phone incident, this morning, my mom asked me if i wanted a new phone since ive been using this nokia one for awhile alr. of course i said no.

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a few lesson learnt:

-next time bring a bag when going out.
OR
-place phone in pocket at all times.
OR
-if phone bulges out in an unsightly way, buy new pants which are loose. and never buy tight pants anymore.
OR
-stop being damn clumsy lah, nur syazana abu bakar.!!!!!!! SHEEEEEEEESH!

okay gdbye,i have some studying to do noww!! (:

HAHAHAHHAHA!!!!

oh, hello there. sorry. i havent went on my friendster for awhile. decided to check stuffs today. got two testimo which made me smile.

first one i got was frm diyanah, my cousin. as much as i’d like to believe the things she wrote abt me, i dont cos i believe praises frm relatives are kinda biased. DUH!

second one was frm syafiq hussain,
Dorkman | 9/6/2006
North,South,East and West.
Syazana is the Best.
She is different from the rest.
Mess around with her and she’ll kick your ass!

hehe

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yeeeey. at long last he agrees im the besssst!. whee!!!
ok, da tdo now!!!

my brain is getting rusty. havent been doing much revising and today’s maths class proved it. my head started to ache after i did intensive thinking for my maths test just now.

but all the thinking and headaches were worth it cos i got an A for the test. =D =D and i beat mariam by half a mark on the test. yessssssssssssa!!!!! hehs.

its hard to believe that two yrs ago, it’d be ecstatic to get an E8 for any tests or maths paper i sat for. yes, i’d usually get an F9 lah.

fot that, thank you ms goh lay ching. =)))))))).!

oh, i kept thinking nash was in sch today cos i was very freaking sure i could smell the smell of nash. but apparently i have quite forgotten tt aniq and nash has the same smell.

much disappointment there.

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fi, i need to do revision. tell me abt whenever you’re free aite. anw, i miss you alr.

i have some eng thing tmr. and i have a date with mr nosh too. =))))

now, goodbye.!

so hello there. =)

okay so today i am a bad girlfriend. i thought one of nash’s friends was showing him some porn thing. i got pissed lah.

bad influence.

so anw, i got pissed and angry at nash cos i thought he was enjoying it lah. turns out, it wasnt even a porn video. its a recording of two people making love. no visual thing. you can only hear them.

so nash explained that initially he was trying to make out what it was cos it was quiet at first and when he heard the moaning and all,i came alr. and i assumed. which is bad of me. =(

so. im sorry naaaaash.

and today we had one of those talks also. apparently, nash’s been feeling insecure abt my feelings for him. haiya.

i realised this change in him eversince the last big argumant we had. i realised how insecure he is when im ard other guys. i thought it’ll go away after a while but it has worsen. so we talked, and i hope i made hiim feel better.

i really regret some of the things i said when we were arguing the other day. i regret the things i said to him and to someoe else too. sheeeeeeeeesh. why do i say stupid things when im angryyyy?

and so, all im hoping is for nash to be less insecure abt the way i feel for him. and if you’re reading this my sexy pantat boy, gue sayang kamu ok. =)

and you’ve changed. for the better. <3