Syazana A.Bakar’s Weblog

its been awhile right.

MORNING everyone.!!! =)
this week was by far the most boring week of my life. omg, i dont know how the hell i survived that! anywaes, it has emotionally drained me out. but everything is O-kay now

oh, but one good thing was that it was the only week where aisyah came for the whole week. her mom even said so. hahahha. and she’s becoming sweeter these days.! =) now now, im glad whatever ive said didnt fall on deaf ears alright.

love you okay!

didnt have recess wif abee yest because she did prefect duty and went for her debate thing straightaway. they are so enthu abt it, i think they might have a great chance winning against 4e1.

compare to what my class even did. -__-

afee did this stupid good sign thingy and shee and i had a great deal of fun trying to irritate her. but shee damn cacat. she can do it the whole time ALONE looking like a monkey. HAHHAHA.

so again i shall say, I LOVE ALL THREE DEARS, and of course i do love you too syah. dont be naughty anymore okay. think of your future. its so near to getting out of this damn sch. lets not waste time anymore.

and shee. i know you are smiling SO MUCH more lah. HAHAH
*faintsfaintsfaints*

retarded lah you!

after sch was spent with afee and AIN!!! hahaha. i love hugging that girl. she made some dirty comments wen i hugged her before going home. you DIRTY minded person. afee just laughed and laughed. hmm, monkeys.

i love you lah ain. hahaha. HUGHUG

anw, i want to go SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i malas to go mandi. =D

AND thank you zafirahbtemustaza for making me feel better and being there for me when i was like shitto!!! hahaha, and hizkil loves me more. shut up okay. !

dont do this to me. not now. in fact, not ever.

-sighs.

hello hello. mr yong told us abt the contacts situation and i am scared okay. i dont want to end up blind. please god, no.

anw, my mom asked me to stop putting on contacts and go to sch in specs tmr. shud i listen to her.? i want to but i dont want to. urgh!

FRIDAY! shall buy new contacts on friday. i dont care! and i just bought two bottles of bausch&lomb solution. omg, abt 20 bucks thrown down the drain. i dont think i can get a stupid refund!

just greeeeat!. urgh.

anw, i have NEWS! urm, HAHA. okay, im going to be a teeenie weenie mean so pls excuse me. HAHAHHAHAHHA

at sch just now after recess, when i was heading to my locker, i heard a scream and i saw someone fall off a chair. i couldnt see clearly who it was but i thought it was siobhan. i wanted to go over and comment how cacat she was and if she’s alright or not.

got the shock of my life when i realised it was khai. i dont know if the chair was spoilt in the first place or it got spoilt because she was too heavy and she damaged the chair.

i shall admit that i did laugh for quite abit lah. but i swear i felt abit guilty for being so insensitive and you know, oh well, urm, mean.

but i really pitied her you know. i swear. because when she fell, all her friends just continued sitting and not even one of them got up to help her up. i mean, is that the kind of friends she has and wants to keep.?

if i were to fall, i shall admit that my friends would probably laugh but AT LEAST i know that they would help me up and NOT just sit and look at me getting up myself.

and if they dont laugh, they would panic and ask if im okay. im sure they wont stone in their seats and keep quiet like they dont know me

i think its sad. i’d be soooo sad if i had friends like her. but its okay. ive prayed for her. REALLY. im actually quite nice okay. i felt bad for laughing so i prayed for her.

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remember that i said i bought my solution? HAHAH. i told my mom to try to go to the shop and get a refund OR exchange it for another brand.

ive only opened one of the bottles so the other one is sealed. so i was hoping she could at least exchange the other bottle for me and i could save ten dollars rather than buy another bottle.

but she told me “CANNOT LAH!” where got such things. she was soo sure we couldnt get a refund or an exchange. i was like thinking, how would she know she cant change it if she doesnt even try?

omg, i almost gave up because ive been trying to persuade her for the millionth time. but she was SOOOO sure that im talking bulls for wanting to get a refund or exchange. i kinda lost hope also since i have this thinking that my mom is usually always right.

but i also felt that she wouldnt know because she havent even tried asking whaaaat. got pissed so i searched for the shop’s number. called them up and asked them if i could get an exchange or not.

AND THEY SAID I COULD EXCHANGE WITH ANOTHER BRAND. hah! went to my mom and i gave the i-told-you-so lecture. omg, its so scary to see how much i actually resemble my mom when it comes to nagging. even my mom got irritated with my nagging. HAHAHA.

anw, i dont have to spend extra money on another solution. i just lost 10 bucks. it isnt much compared to how much i would have possibly lost!.

=D

wheeeeeeee. hohoho. no homework today and i didnt touch any books for revision!!! BAAAAAD! common test next week! aaaaaar.

everyone is getting sick!!!!! please take care all my dear friends. i kinda got angry at nash yest bcos he had np. (i know i shouldnt) i felt guilty okay. so i bought vicks for him cos he’s sick. there. i made it up to him. im such a sweet girlfriend, i know!!!

HHAHAHHA. anw, i hate being lazy! SHOULD NOT SHOULD NOT!!!!!

after sch, zaf, abee, shee nash and i sat together and they talk abt their lower secs moments. i swear abee is a gangster. very garang you know. and nash is very selenger i cannot tahan. HAHA.zaf is just plain patient. sometimes i ‘d like to see how abee and nash would look like to gether. after all they’ve like each other before.!! HAHAHHA.

okay sorry and i shall shut up now.
BYE

random thought: sheikha doesnt smile that much anymore. =(

yesterday was spent with my favourite uncle!!!

love him so much. it has been quite awhile since i last saw him. and i know he loves me too.

he commented that im having more and more pimples.! =( he says its because i always daydream abt getting married thats why i get pimples.

what nonsense.! hmph. and we fought abt who is sexier. my uncle or me? so obvious.! im sexier lah. hmph.! hahha. but i think my uncle is good looking you know. if he was 21 yrs younger, i’d probably marry him.! hahaha.

he’s 39 btw. haha. so old yet still quite sexy lah. sexier than my dad lah! haha.

anw, was suppose to meet nash for awhile but he cudnt make it. so i thot today he’d have time for me but i was wrong. he had some NP thing.

oh what else is new?!

today i very semangat art. hohohho. OHH OHHH!! got back our test on loci and construction.! we did the test like two days after the superteen thing lah.

i remembered ernest telling us how powerful our mind is so when i was doing the test i kept telling mmyself i must score full marks.

AND I DID!! so happy okay. hohoho. im getting more confidence of getting an A for olevels.

=)

i shall and i WILL!!!! common test next week. haizz. nerve wrecking laaaaaaaaah! i am sooooo bored. no one is at home you know. everyone has NP!

oh, i gt kinda pissed abt how everyone has np and no time for me then ain and nash asked me to join np. crazy or what. think fun fair uh? anyway, they should feel threatened cos im so good thet i will have a higher rank than them!!

hoho, alah , let me shiok sendiri for awhile lah.

dah, off to do maths homework. i thought of revising some stuffs for common test but nw im sooooooooooooo lazy. OMG syazana, dont be lazy laaaaaaaah!

miss me everyone. you know you love me.
if you dont, well, I DO & my friends and nash does too!
and thats all that matters.

azmee is trying to stall for time. hurry leh.!!! i dont care. decide now laaaaaaaaaah! or else…. hehe

=D

my macho boyfriend got a first class drill badge or something like that lah. hohhoho. so macho.

however, i still think i can march better than him. he said something like
“you march better? pls laaaar.”

walau, eh i was in ncc ok last time and i think i march better than him uh. hmph. action onlie he.

okaylah, u very macho ok.!

anw, gd luck for your competition tmr.slp sooo early. go rest byk byk lah. you have np like five times a week seeey. hurry and get it over and done with. so you can now spend time with meeeee.! =D

i met fifi just now. am so so so happy. met rafidah and syafiq in specs. they should be honoured okay. i havent met my friends in specs in a long long time you know.

talked to her for awhile and did some bluetoothing.

omg, i miss siti rafidah so much. and i love her too. we have and must see each other more aften laaaaah.

sayang fifi. <3

sorry sorry. i know alot of my friends wants to kill me for not blogging. ppl have been saying that my blog is becoming boring cos i dont update. hoho sorry.

but do expect less posts because heloo, o levels this year my sayangs!!

putting aside blogging is definitely a yes yes! i want my 5A’s you know. haha. i am so tired and bored cos no one is at home and i didnt go school today.

hopefully i didnt miss much in sch.

lets talks abt tuesday… what happened uh? alamak, forget uh. OH!! v-day! DOSA! got some chocolates and sweets frm female friends. hahaha. love you sayangs so much. oh and aisz gave me this pink notebk thingo. thank you. =)

wednesday was total defence day thing. had to seal up the room for the IPP thing. alamak, i dont like seah. some people were sweating and omg, they stink so much i wanted to faint. food was really stupid lah. 2 people were supposed to share a packet of biscuit. only three biscuit in each packet.

pathetic nak mampos.

np was cancelled so zaf and i went shopping. well, i actually wanted to buy some stuffs already. been aiming for a certain skirt lah. found it and saw my size. tried to find a nice top to match with it lah. i wanted to go to the fitting rm and try it on after that but i got really bad service frm the salesgirl, i was so pissed that i told her i dont want to buy anymore.

stupid girl. complain to your manager then you know. bloody hell.ended up window shopping only. but nvm lah, save money better. hohiho.

yesterday, urm waited for nash to finish his np. i said something stupid abt some other guy and shah just had to open his big mouth and tell nash. walau, then nash angry i try to pujok him lah. pujok like hell seah but he like angry angry.

ALL SHAH’S FAULT! then zaf said that she feels like she has seen this happening before but just the other way round meaning im the one angry and nash pujok but i still wan to merajok. where got sia. i always frogive him so easily what.

no ker?

i was getting very tired of trying to make nash not angry at me anymore. seriously lah. omg. ive never ever in my whole life try to pujok someone for that long. i think more than one hour uh. but felt like ten hours you know.

zaf is so mean. i was very tired then i want to lean on nash’s shoulder but i was very scared cos he angry then i want to lean on zaf but she wont let me. she say she busok. like i care she busok like that. i sayang you whether you busok or wangi lah. dumb dumb.

i felt so rejected yesterday okay. hmph. and shah is mean also.

last of all,
KEITH IS MR SOAPY BOYY.! ur birthday i buy soap fr you okaaay! HAHHAHAHHA. and please dont rape me!

do expect less blogging!!!!!!

dad is discouraging me frm dropping art. argh, omg, im so pening now.

wheee, dia starting soon and nash finishing tuition soon. omg, im so tired for some reason.nash and i talked and we are not celebrating valentine or friendship day tmr.

baaah. first time in yrs that im not celebrating ut i keep telling myself that its SINFUL to do so. its okay, nash said something like
“we dont have to celebrate tmr because every other day is always special.”

hohoh. step sweet only. HAHA. nice to see at least he’s trying to be.

OKAY! enuf abt nash lah. people are getting bored already because thay only want to read abt mee. let talk about MEEEEE. hohohho. oh talked to my adek abt the superteen thing.

sister: i cant believe you stood up when they asked who wanted to get 5A’s
me: (beams proudly) haha. and i will okay! did i look sexy frm where you could see me?
sister: NO! you look fat. your butt looks big and makes you look fat.

wow. what a “nice” sis i have!

im so tired i want to pengsan. tomorrow i should not expect for anything! god is watching. SINFUL!

alah, update again another time lah. alot of distractions now. dia is on lah. i cant blog properly.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
everyone is happy. =)))

sio got me to do this,CACAT HAMSTER, so here goes..

My Perfect Lover (:

The Rules.

The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover.
Need to mention the sex of the target.
Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their page saying they have been tagged.
If tagged the 2nd time, theres no need to post again

Target: Male!

1. urm, he must prioritise his family then followed my MEE! hoho. yes, im selfish. so?

2. must be totally honest and loyal.

3. i MUST NOT feel deprived from whatever aspects! hahaha.

4. it’s a bonus if he can spend on me like he has all the money in the world, even if he doesnt.

5. slightly boncet, charming smile, nice eyes, perfect hands that fits nicely in mine, sexy ass. hoho. sorry but im a sucker for nice asses

7. able to understand what i want, how i feel and never get tired of me.

8. his name must be muhd nashruddin bin abdol aziz. =)

&.

i want..

you

to do this.

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before i start babbling abt how great and wonderful the superteen workshop has been, i want to sincerely apologise to my secfour friends for not being there for you guys.

people who tried to call countless times, esp rafidah. okay that looked weird. i meant, fifi! but sorry fifi, leen and ain for not being able to give you hugs and share your happiness/sadness/jitteriness.etc

was having a workshop and i cant really ask to go to the toilet at any time i want. so yeah, i wanted to be there but just couldnt kay my dears.

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from that aside, the superteen workshop has really changed my thinking in lots of ways. seriously. ive come to realise how powerful the mind is. for those who went, did you remember the steel rod thing they did.

omg, that amazed me so much.

on the last day,when dr. Ernest wong asked who wanted to get 6A’s for their olevels, initially, i wanted to stand up. but i thought of my potential and i dont think i can.

so, i have come to a decision that i shall get 5A’s for my olevels. i know some of you are mocking and laughing at me. go ahead and laugh. because i know that those who are laughing are those who DIDNT go for the workshop.

and i know you are probably those who have taken up olevels. and i know most of you are frm my original batch. yes, those who have recently gotten your oleves results.

i know you’re thinking,
“this syazana talk abt olevels like its so easy. she retained for a year and can still imagine abt achieving 5A’s for her olevels.”

haha. i will be the last one laughing. but one promise i shall make for everyone is that i shall AT LEAST get 3A’s and the subjects will be:
-elementary maths. (laugh all you want. my maths is good.)
-malay. (shall read malay newspapers)
-combined science. (haha, im good at chem. i have a bestfriend who got A1 for her comb sci. ADVANTAGE there)

you may be thinking this is all bullsh.. crap but haha, you didnt go for the superteen workshop so you wont understand how i can achieve this.

so thank you god for retaining me. i met wonderful friends, nash, better teachers(ehem!maths) and i got a chance to attend a superteen workshop and meet DR ERNEST WONG!.

omg, this workshop has changed my thinking so much. these people are so good, they can make the whole auditorium cry just by their words.

amazing, i know! even the guys cried okay. and not those sob sob cry. its those wailing and wailing kind of cry.

at one point when everyone was crying, the auditorium sounded like a bunch of dogs were wailing and communicating with each other.

ive never cried that much for a long time. i shall change my thinking and thoughts.
i am my thoughts.
first thought: i am a nice person.i love children. HAHA
second thought: i am a champion, a winner.
third thought: i am a student who WILL achieve 5A’s.
fourth thought: i am a great daughter,great sister, great friend, great girlfriend.

closing ceremony was great. i apologised to mschia for the things i did for being rude.after that i hugged her.

i thanked ms goh layching for making me pass maths and i promised her that i will get an A for maths.i hugged msgoh twice. haha.when i said the part that i shall achieve A for her subject, she hugged me. haha.

hugged mskohmenggeok and thanked her for her care and concerns towards us.

and mstanyoksiew. she wont hug me unless i promise to get A for eng. so i did. and i plan to keep my promise.

i never break promises. so i shant.

second day was the most emotional one. much talk abt family and yourself. i shall love myself and not bother abt what ppl say because it doesnt matter. at all.

i started thinking of those ive taken advantage of. thinking that they will always be there. MY PARENTS. lots of tears for the whole auditorium. much reflection on myself. i started thinking abt how i argue with my parents.

it wasnt right. and how i get easily angry at nash. how i scolded him. omg, im so sorry. after the emo part, they gave us a break. nash was with us this session cos he missed his session for np. i apologised to shah once again and went up to nash. hugged and apologised over and over.

after dinner, everyone listened and became all goody. we knew thar dr ernest wong knew so much more than we did.

got home late at night and ibu&sisters werent home. took the opportunity to apologise to ayah for disappointing him and i hugged him and told him i love him. he was worried at the way i was acting at first but i did hug me back. kissed him goodnight and slept well.

slept so well that i woke up late the next morning. sorry again nash for making you wait for me. love you for not being angry. =)

i learnt aLOT. so much and too much that i cant type them out. theres just too much that ive learnt.

i shall start making use of this and i want to be the 5% and succeed.
my journey starts from now

okay. thank you sheikha. THANK YOU!!!!!! muah. haha.
=)

and you, no more arguments alright.? =)

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i have nash’s smell on my sch blouse. i dont want to wash it. and i dont want to change out of it. haha. i know. sounds sick right. hahahah.

just now nash said im heavy. wow. a nice boyfriend i have. hoho.
<3