I’ll make do with no power

Someone once told me that the power in all relationships lies with whoever cares less, and he was right. But power isn’t happiness, and I think that maybe happiness comes from caring more about people rather than less.
- Connor Mead

Green Light

Did I not tell you that I met Nash’s Dad (for the first time ever) sometime last week when I went to his place? I was totally expecting him to disapprove of me seeing that Nash’s brother is with some ustazah or something. Ah, well, Nash just told me that his Dad was asking about me and his dad seems to like me quite a bit.

Hehe!
I’ve always been horrible around parents and kids. This TOTALLY made my day. Whoot!

Hmm, I just need my Dad to approve of Nash and everything would be perfect. Yes, Nash hasn’t met my Dad. At least, not yet. I haven’t had the guts to bring it up to my Dad.  But I will, one fine day, I will.

Patience, my dear, is a virtue.

Bushy Hair

I need a visit to the hair salon.
BADLY.

Private Pool

Yesterday started out badly with me waking up one hour prior to class. Imagine how panicky I was since I was supposed to be in the train by then. Had no choice but to cab to school, frustrating, I know. Had to borrow 30 bucks from Kak Nana for the cabfare. I was pretty annoyed with myself cos I cabbed to school last week too (but Nash paid cos he made me late). And I hate cabbing to school cos its so effing expensive. Gah. I couldve bought more tops for myself with that money la. Or pay my bill or something.

But the day went well after school cos Nash and I finally went swimminggggg.! Whooot! It was our first time swimming together although I’ve been wanting to for awhile now. But that boyfriend of mine has a phobia of water cos he almost drowned when he was 5 years old or something. Cute or what. haha! My boyfriend cannot swim. Lol. At least he’s doing something to overcome his fear right?

It was really fun cos we literally had the whole pool to ourselves and we were laughing like idiots watching each others expression underwater. I had lots of fun. I’ve been wanting to swim for awhile now but never got round to buying a new swimwear till Nash accompanied me the other day.

We must do it again real soon k love.!

Pleasant Surprise

My Uncle came home with 100 durians for us knowing that I’ve been craving for them since Sunday. Imagine three bloody big sacks full of durians. Awesome or whaaaat. He even made me eat the first durian as an “opening ceremony”. Haha

Syazana very happy.. Whoot!

I believe in whatever you do

Shee’s gonna start school at SIM sometime in August. I’m really looking forward to it, seeing how I’m always wanting to eat at SIM during my breaks. I hate how Ngee Ann has very limited food stalls that are halal. I keep eating the same old thing whenever I have lunch in Ngee Ann.

So yeay Shee! Start school soon. It’ll be nice to have you closer to me!
And I miss my girls very very much. nyeh.

I also cannot wait for Nash to get his license. His dad’s gonna buy the family another car when Nash passes! Whoot! Honestly, I think I am more excited about it than he is. Lol.

Pasir Ris is starting to grow on me. At least, I am much closer to Nash and somehow, this has made us closer. And I am doing all I can to make up for all the shit I’ve done.

I love you Nashruddin, I do.

Trying

Why are you being so hard on me?

Bau bacin

Asal eh budak budak kursus aku ni macam tak tau mandi sebelum datang sekolah.Sesatu Kebanyakan muke basi dan bau bacin.

Adoiiii.

Said so yourself

“the only clear way is to move forward and let go”

its for the best, isn’t it?

This time

I’m going to try my best.
I’m going to put in my everything. For you. For us.

This time, nothing is gonna hold me back anymore.